Tender, Loving, Care ! ^o^

Babies... Babies... They are mothers labour of loves !

See the beautiful babies,
Their chubby cheeks and thighs.
See them sleeping soundly,
Rocked by a mere lullaby.
With dreams of butterflies,
Their mouths form a grin.
Warm and snugly in their cribs.
How I wish babyhood would never end !

9 Months, 40 Weeks, 320 days and 7680 hours for these beautiful babies to be born. Little toes, hands, head, backside and even their "cakes" (The Faeces - Shit) are so little. It makes me feel that i working in the "small world". Mother are the greatest human being on earth. Without mothers, there are no babies. (With father sperm too, but mother are still the best.)
Being not able to go to the nursery room makes me envy those who can work in the nursery, (i only going into the room on Friday), but it give me the motivation to go to work everyday. (Although it is very inconvenience to go to work from my house and i have to wake up very early at 5.)Having to work there give me a lot emotional feeling. I saw a lot of mothers showering her little ones with love and care that makes me feel like going back to babyhood.

Another few more days to go to get into the rooms of angels. No matter how tired i am, babies will keep me awake. I always wanted to be a midwifery ever since i step into nursing line. Now i am sure that i wants to be one after leaving my Hotelier career .Thanks babies for making everyday a special one. Can't wait to see the little angels tomorrow. I starting to miss them !

P.S: Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be; because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want in life.

Reborn....

Firstly i have to apologize that it been quite a long time since i update my blog. It is because "Angel" (That me, if anyone don't understand) is busy with my attachment in the hospital ward and also trying very hard to creates happy memories from this new environment.
Finally i manage to get out from this most "Challenging" ward and now living in luxury, getting in touch with the little angels at CHIJ Our Lady Of Good Counsel. Although its a day experience there, it make me realize that children can be so adorable and fun to play with. (They are really soooooooo CUTE !) I hope that school will post us more to primary schools to have our attachment. HA... HA...
Anyway, i hope that it can be more interesting at KKH when i goes over next week. Hopefully i won't get headache with too much babies crying. Firstly i don't have breast milk to feed them, (Cos i quite flat la) and secondly, it because i get lost when i sees children and babies cries. I will also get very very panic. Well this is one thing that i think i have to overcome. Hope that someone will help me in this. - Right Jane?

Well i will update more of my attachment life especially the funny incident here. Please bear with me that if i haven't update my blog for a long time. As you know, nurses are in demand everywhere, so i am extremely busy. (Going out with friends, as well as dreaming of my dearest darling - YOU !)

Hopefully that i won't stop thinking of you. It because being a friend with you is easy but getting to know you better is a challenging thing for me. Hope that you understand what i actually mean....

Well, i getting tired after being a nanny for a day, Opps i mean working, with children. It time for "you" again. (Dreaming) Zzzzz !!! - Snoring !

P.S: Fear is my best friend. It shows me a path to nowhere;I choose another way.they say that a true hero / heroine is not one that harbors no fear but rather one that dares to overcome their fear.

A honorable day !

Today is my cousin open house for Prison Staff Training School. She will be Captain of Lives for our nations. I feel so happy for her. After going through nearly 20 weeks of hardship she finally going to pass out in a few weeks time. Looking at the place she stay, train and eat makes me feel very fortunate to be living in luxury. With aircon, soft warm bed, and wonderful food of course, and I sometime still grumble. It make me feel really fortunate and hurt to see her suffering in there. But since this is what she wants to choose as a career then we shall respect it. Although I have to wake up quite early to go there but I don't mind cause there's a lot of handsome guys for me too see... :P But anyway all the best to you and may you have a great future ahead. Salute !

Fates and Destiny...

For him that i want to let you know,

Was it destiny or fate that brought you to me,
Was it destiny or fate that taught me to believe,
Was it destiny or fate that got me through the days and nights,
Was it destiny or fate that taught me everything was going to be alright,
To me it was fate,
because i know that my love for you is true, and now i am just happy,
because i could see you everyday.

擁有愛，是一種幸福；失去愛，將會是另一種幸福。
每一位離開的人，都應該被祝福；留下的人，當學會珍重。

Bomb ! Booooo....

For a start, I would like to thanks all the people who have given me words of advise; encouragements and those who have show concern towards me this few days when I am depressed. Also to those that have lent me their ears... THANK YOU! I will stay strong and look on the brighter side.

Although things aren’t getting better today but there a really funny incident that I meet that brighten up my day. It happened when I and one of my classmate, Missy F, was changing diaper for the patient. This patient had a stroke and is paralyzed. So we need a lot of strength to turn her in order to clean her. When Missy F was trying to clean her butt, she starts to urine on to the bed. Luckily we put a protective sheet on it. Therefore it saves us the energy to change the bed sheet as well. But this was not all... (Here comes the funny part). So after she finish urine, Missy F was very kind to help her clean her butt, she hope to have a better look at it that she places her face directly at her butt hole. Then a silent bomb came… This lady actually hit the “bull eyes”! It was so damn good aim that Missy F has no time to react. It was too fast for her to react and also she was too shock that there wind coming out from the butt… After about 5 sec, then she say this to me" Damn it! Jas, nobody actually farted on my face before!" After she says that, then i began to smell the bomb. It was really a silent bomb that could faint everyone in the ward. Even one of the ITE student nurse have to spray the air freshener to prevent others from fainting. I just couldn’t stop laughing at her reaction. I told her that she should be grateful that this patient isn't having a diarrhea. If not her face can have a free "Nutrition Mask" (S**T). Then she will have a good complexion. (Please don’t vomited)

Although things isn't going any better, but this little joy is enough to brighten up my stressful day. Maybe my rainbow is beginning to appear and shine in the sky.

P.S: Laughter is the best medication... :D

Disappointment...

Life is not going to be smooth anymore... I feel so disappointed and upset by what actually happen today. First of all, working environment was bad. But this wasn't the main thing; I find that I am still able to manage it. I try to make myself more joyful by creating some lame jokes in the wards.
Then here comes an incident, where an anxious old lady who came into our ward to look for her sick mother. She was looking high and low, but there wasn't any sight of her sick mom. I wish I could help her but I couldn't because we couldn't access to the hospital computer system. I brought her to the Patient Care Assistant to check on the system. They are the ones who will handle all the discharges and admission of patients. They will know all the information of all the patients. But this F**king assistant couldn't understand how anxious this poor lady has been, after going from wards to wards looking for her mom. She gave a damn stupid reason saying that this is a waste of time helping her as she doesn't have details of her mother. She scolded this poor lady and says that she wasting her time as she has 5 discharge patients handle. Indeed, this poor lady doesn't even know her mom full name in English (she could only speck Hokkien) but she has her mother age, address and date of admission. I don't understand why she couldn't help her with all this information. (Volcano Eruption) I couldn't understand how come people living on the same planet could be so heartless and so Fishmonger (Selfish). I couldn't believe my eye working in an angel environment has a devil here. When she realized that we couldn't help her, she started to cry. Seeing her cry makes my heart sank. I wish that I could able to help her by going to every ward to look around. I couldn't believe that she is a Patient Care Assistant. What "CARE" actually mean to her?
Then second incident, we are supposed to present what sister has asked us to research on certain procedures. Before all this discussion, sister has already got bad impression of our group because she fined that we are worst then the ITE students. Actually I agree with her la. It is because; all our modules are rushing through. We don't have a proper hand on practices. Therefore we are at a more disadvantages where it comes to skills. I find that she the best sister I ever come across who is willing to teach us and tell us the correct techniques. We should appreciate that she spends her precious time with us for discussion where the ITEs don't even have this privileges. But.... few of our classmates actually don't feel in this way, they were rude to her and then show her attitudes. I feel very disappointed and sad. It because I wants to learn! After 2 days of tolerating with us, she actually could not take it and gave up hopes on us. It makes my heart sank even further. She just walk out of the room and went to the nurses’ station. Before she left, she says, “Go home, Sign out and go home!" All of us were SHOCK! I hold back my tears (Cos I don't like to cry in front of others). Then I keep quiet all the way, from hospital back home.
Finally, I broke down at home and cry beneath my blankets. I feel so hurt that why some people couldn't appreciate what others are doing for them? If they are not interested in the course why can't they just persude something that they are interested in? Till now my heart is still aching. I could not forget the scenes that when I went up to say sorry to sister and ask her will we have a discussion tomorrow, she told me that "See how first, your don't seem to be interested in it".
I don't blame her for this. I don't blame anyone but myself.
Maybe I should be more proactive and observant to the environment.
Learnt from the others by observations and doing more research, instead of relying on others. It time that i should wipe off my tear now.
Get on with my attachment with a more positive attitude.

P.S : Hope that after raining days, there always a rainbow.

Future is the Best !

It only my 2nd day in hospital for my attachment and life is very challanging for me in the ward. In the morning, i was nearly late for work. I so sotong that i actually set my alarm clock at the wrong time. Luckily with my panties wearing outside (Superman - who wear a red underwear outside >>> OPPS) power, i manage to reach the ward in time for work. Then as on the first day, someone create a challanging jobs for us, it makes our lifes extraordinary today.

Since then, i find that, "days" are like "years" to me in the ward. Since then i regretted going into year 2. I wish i am still in year 1 (Touch wood). I hope within this few days, no more challanging stuffs for me. I will pray very very hard to whatever god up there to get blessing.

Maybe i should learn from Jane, be a lunatic there to make myself happier and time will pass... Maybe i should look more on the positive side, to make my days a better one.

Lets us all works towards our future >>> To the BABIES... (KKH) See your guys there ! Hope that it will be better there.I need milk milk missy ! (Laugh) :P
Well time to go dreaming again... Zzzzzzzzzzzz


P.S : Look on the brighter side. There's always light at the end of the tunnel.