Disappointment...

Life is not going to be smooth anymore... I feel so disappointed and upset by what actually happen today. First of all, working environment was bad. But this wasn't the main thing; I find that I am still able to manage it. I try to make myself more joyful by creating some lame jokes in the wards.
Then here comes an incident, where an anxious old lady who came into our ward to look for her sick mother. She was looking high and low, but there wasn't any sight of her sick mom. I wish I could help her but I couldn't because we couldn't access to the hospital computer system. I brought her to the Patient Care Assistant to check on the system. They are the ones who will handle all the discharges and admission of patients. They will know all the information of all the patients. But this F**king assistant couldn't understand how anxious this poor lady has been, after going from wards to wards looking for her mom. She gave a damn stupid reason saying that this is a waste of time helping her as she doesn't have details of her mother. She scolded this poor lady and says that she wasting her time as she has 5 discharge patients handle. Indeed, this poor lady doesn't even know her mom full name in English (she could only speck Hokkien) but she has her mother age, address and date of admission. I don't understand why she couldn't help her with all this information. (Volcano Eruption) I couldn't understand how come people living on the same planet could be so heartless and so Fishmonger (Selfish). I couldn't believe my eye working in an angel environment has a devil here. When she realized that we couldn't help her, she started to cry. Seeing her cry makes my heart sank. I wish that I could able to help her by going to every ward to look around. I couldn't believe that she is a Patient Care Assistant. What "CARE" actually mean to her?
Then second incident, we are supposed to present what sister has asked us to research on certain procedures. Before all this discussion, sister has already got bad impression of our group because she fined that we are worst then the ITE students. Actually I agree with her la. It is because; all our modules are rushing through. We don't have a proper hand on practices. Therefore we are at a more disadvantages where it comes to skills. I find that she the best sister I ever come across who is willing to teach us and tell us the correct techniques. We should appreciate that she spends her precious time with us for discussion where the ITEs don't even have this privileges. But.... few of our classmates actually don't feel in this way, they were rude to her and then show her attitudes. I feel very disappointed and sad. It because I wants to learn! After 2 days of tolerating with us, she actually could not take it and gave up hopes on us. It makes my heart sank even further. She just walk out of the room and went to the nurses’ station. Before she left, she says, “Go home, Sign out and go home!" All of us were SHOCK! I hold back my tears (Cos I don't like to cry in front of others). Then I keep quiet all the way, from hospital back home.
Finally, I broke down at home and cry beneath my blankets. I feel so hurt that why some people couldn't appreciate what others are doing for them? If they are not interested in the course why can't they just persude something that they are interested in? Till now my heart is still aching. I could not forget the scenes that when I went up to say sorry to sister and ask her will we have a discussion tomorrow, she told me that "See how first, your don't seem to be interested in it".
I don't blame her for this. I don't blame anyone but myself.
Maybe I should be more proactive and observant to the environment.
Learnt from the others by observations and doing more research, instead of relying on others. It time that i should wipe off my tear now.
Get on with my attachment with a more positive attitude.

P.S : Hope that after raining days, there always a rainbow.