My love ones

Recently i just don't know where my smile has gone to ! Many things had happened around me...

Being the first person to know that your love one has a terminal disease was really a upsetting news to me.

Although i face a lot of life and death situations, but learning the truth that the love ones will leave me soon makes me think through alot.

Lots and lots of question come across my mind which, I really don't know what i should do now.

I felt the guilt towards her as i didn't take care her well enough.

I felt the guilt towards her as i didn't spent enough time with her.

I felt the guilt towards her as i didn't show enough care for her.

There are a lots of guilt towards her and worst thing is, i am going for my studies in another 2 months.

The most upsetting thing is that no one bother to look after them

What should i do?

How can i leave for my studies, without worries ?

She is my beloved grandmother, who has skin cancer.

May god bless you without any misery and take all the illness away from you.

PS: I hope god could give me more time to spent with them !