Life is fragile...

Recently bad news comes one after another till i couldn't take it anymore.

Another family member of mine have been diagnosis with cancer too.

It really very disheartening.

I really felt that life is really very fragile.

In a 6 million population why them????

Where my smile had gone, i don't know but i know that it has drifted too far that i couldn't reach anymore.

Happiness is so near yet so far that i couldn't reach anymore.

I have no time for any relationship, and friends.

Hope that your will understand my situation now...

I hope to spent more time with them now till i leave in febuary.

PS: God please don't give me more bad news now. I really in the boundary of breaking down.

My love ones

Recently i just don't know where my smile has gone to ! Many things had happened around me...

Being the first person to know that your love one has a terminal disease was really a upsetting news to me.

Although i face a lot of life and death situations, but learning the truth that the love ones will leave me soon makes me think through alot.

Lots and lots of question come across my mind which, I really don't know what i should do now.

I felt the guilt towards her as i didn't take care her well enough.

I felt the guilt towards her as i didn't spent enough time with her.

I felt the guilt towards her as i didn't show enough care for her.

There are a lots of guilt towards her and worst thing is, i am going for my studies in another 2 months.

The most upsetting thing is that no one bother to look after them

What should i do?

How can i leave for my studies, without worries ?

She is my beloved grandmother, who has skin cancer.

May god bless you without any misery and take all the illness away from you.

PS: I hope god could give me more time to spent with them !